It finally sank in

Today was my off day and I spent like I really wanted to; with a dentists hands in my mouth all morning. I hope the baby inherits lydia's genetic disposition for no cavities instead of mine for teeth that break up and fall out if you smile to hard. I took lyd to the doctor this afternoon because she's had a bad cough for a few days and we just want to be careful. So after the doc we went to a book store with the intent on finally buying a baby book. I have been afraid to do this so far because I was afraid of being spotted and the big secret getting out.

So Lydia hands me a book called "God Created Me". It one of those books that you fill in all the answers about your feelings and what you want the baby to know about the experience. The first main page is entitled "Right from the start, God had me in mind!" and has room for pictures. One of the pages is about how "God created mom and dad" and one about how "...they fell in love" and then one says that something was missing "So...God Created Me!" As I stood in the bookstore reading this little book it all hit me, and it all became real for the first time. As tears ran down my face and I cried like a baby, I read the scriptures written on the pages...

"You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed."

Psalm 139:16 (NLT)

"I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my spokesman to the world."

Jeremiah 1:5 (NLT)

...and my whole perspective changed. As I flipped through the book and saw pages of questions about things that have already happened, like how Lydia and I met, and other questions about things that we have yet to experience; I could see how God in his wisdom put us together and prepared us for each other and for our child. I was in awe when I thought about God's blessings and His leading in my life.

It was a real special moment of worship.
...standing in a bookstore
...crying like a baby

We bought the book. This whole time I thought it was the expectant mother that was supposed to be emotional.